A blank page after 5 years.
Do I feel any change?
not really...
is it scary that nothing changed?
not really...
its safe but addictive... the idea that in the end we're the same person that we were before.
ideas change, ideals change but our soul doesn't and that's comforting.
Its as if you still have yourself and you will always have.
Goals were reached and dreams left for later, what about time?
Time passed, and it passed so fast...
What do we want to keep from time?
What can we hold on to? Family? Friends? Past?
Definitely all of that however what do we really want to hold on to?
I want to keep the questions...
I want to keep questioning everything, that's the only way we can trick time...
Is time our biggest enemy or our dearest friend? The one that never leave us... Time will be with us until the end of the time. And when the time comes, there wont be no time left...
Its suffocating the idea that theres no time, when the only actual thing we have its time. What a circle with no end.
On my birthday I look back questioning
what have done this year?
what have I done with my time?
Was it worth it?
Realising that I haven't asked enough, haven't searched enough, haven't said enough... So what's the point of passing the time if we let it pass by us?
The ideal would be to go back in time but if so , time wouldn't pass and we wouldn't have to pass it.
So again, theres this circle, just like a watch that goes nowhere but its present all the time.
How addictive can it be?
Wanting something because we don't have, but once its ours we can't hold on to?
Its here and its mine.
This time its mine, I can feel it I can live it but I can't hold on to it.
My advice is to hold onto the time you have, as much as you have.
you wont run out of it...
until it pass.
